Afraid to feel no shame

I wondered if my feelings was true
The sickness I broke through
By conducting the energy of Czee
Made the concealed arrogent out of me
When I'm explained that this practice is normal
I understood that I'm ordinary mortal
But however I fall into madness
And with anger that's careless
I befall the order
Like a misstep recorder
I'm openeing my soul
When hearing a needfull call
I'm afraid to feel no shame
For my ways that're insane