I am a stranger in this world

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I am a stranger in this world
Of cities mad and married couples…
I look for exit from the Earth
At place much distant from such troubles…
I' ll say good-bye to present state
And 'll take my leave…
Good- bye forever…
And God will open me the skies
And ' ll make my consciousness clever…
I will be taught how to survive
Without losses, disillusions…
No hurries need…no pains of heart…
No jumping into fake conclusions…

I'm following the roads of life
By God directed to His dwelling...
But who am I and what am I
May Him provide me with the spelling…