I was coloring my face red

I was coloring my face red
I was coloring my face white
wished to find the right way
never ever be blue.

I made enemies, not friends
my sencier tongue needed a nail
I was tearing veins from my flesh
just to feel something , not to be dead.

I still want to jump from a cliff
even though it will be my last breath
I am shy ,
but devil says - be really bad.

my two natures make me so mad...